Somewhat Unhappy.

 After liking some girls on Facebook, I just thought that they'd probably think I was out there with my ambitions. Who cares? I'll get them done anyways. Tomorrow's a composition day. In fact, I'll work real quick at getting something in my book done. At least it'll prepare me for tomorrow. But yeah, life is pretty shitty. I just experienced overcoming the last 15-20 years. Life has been shitty. So for about 8 months, I felt excellent. That's a hard feat to accomplish. After you go through an entire life of shit, you get ruined. Too much shit went down, and now life is irreversibly damaged. 

But I'll turn things around eventually. I am about to do this Ministry one way or another. I've prepared too well for it not to happen. It's about to happen, I'll buy a house, car and give myself a hundred thousand dollars yearly budget. That'll pay for everything. God says not to be lavish. I've learned it's wise. I've come to like a typical home. You figure to get a 4 thousand sq feet home with 3 floors, and you're living well. About all you need. Maybe eat out all the time, or have a professional kitchen. I don't know if you can use a Grill inside, but if you can, Grill everything on the BBQ Grill. Or, maybe "Commercial Equipment" like a 'Commercial Grill.' Whatever the case, if I bought a 4,000 sq. foot home, I could install and designate everything I need within the house. Which is my dream. I want a Gym, a Library, an Office, and a Kitchen. Four thousand sq. feet with 3 floors will allow that. Put the Gym and Library downstairs, designate one of the 4 bedrooms to be an office, and then decorate the rest as spare bedrooms or spare bedrooms with everyday purposes like gaming or lounging. Ect. That's the dream. I think I will find happiness when I have that.