I don't know. I pray for the hidden meaning of martyrdom. Why do innocent ppl die? Because the evil & wicked do it on purpose.

 But why does it happen? There's no rational or logical explanation, really. It makes sense that God created creation to be autonomous, & the fallen angels caused creation to have corruption. It's because the Fallen Angels are trillions of years old.

I guess I can bless everyone on the way out. I mean, yeah, you are asking to achieve the impossible. I was a zealot. That's how I did it. Zealots have serious problems with trueness. That's what an Angel said to me. "True-teddy-true-true." Too true. Zealots have a problem with trueness. 

I mean, yeah, I definitely want to tell people to fuck off before I go. Because I had 2 chances to make my money & then they closed the books on me. Well, it does make sense that I made money. I remember it happening after a lot of recollection & meditation.

I made 7 million dollars off of $175.00 in 2-days. I did escape death numerous times, as well. You people need to get me on my business, & not in a jail-cell. You keep on causing all of my problems. I mean, I still have time to work. I have a phobia of hellfire. I'm OCD, I'm Insane, I'm Pang, & I'm a Zealot. Juggernaut.