God is commanding the Dope-Industry because mankind suffers from my pain-condition so often & frequently.

 Yeah, I deal with a lot of disease. 

That's one reason God & I are pushing the Dope-Industry.

I have several nerves that are excruciatingly painful.

For example, I got my money. I'm lambasted, already, even though I don't literally have the money.

It's just painful being alive, quite frankly.

I can reach plains of Zen, but having to do my work & chores is exceptionally painful...

There was something about that with my Dad. I realized that my Dad had lost himself in the want & need of help from others. Because my Dad was a father & not a partier. He wanted to be rewarded for it. So, I worked & did chores to an utmost-extent because he was lost in arguing about the things that needed to be done. So, my work & chores weren't all that difficult living with my Dad because we had such a history behind all of it. I mean, yeah, my Dad's been drugged. He's been attacked by others, too. I was really committed to getting him situated on social-security so that I didn't sacrifice him callously. 

But yeah, most of my pain has died down, & I feel pretty normal, but I still experience a great-deal of pain, at the end of the day. Getting into the work-routine & regimen will be excruciating. 

I have all of these pinched nerves that I have to deal with. I think that is what they are. They're pinched nerves. I have wanted to see a doctor, I've just been unable to.